I am drowning

Barely breathing

Life been harder

But this..

This kills every bit left of me

And I got no one to blame

What’s it for anyway?

It’s all because of me

Even myself already given me signals

And I ignore it cold-heartedly

And now am alone

And not whole-heartedly
He said everything has taken away from him

I want to feel sorry for him

I feel sorry for him

But now am too busy agonizing over me

Cause that’s what I do best
In the end

I will be remembered as the girl whose got too much on her plate, always forgot to be thankful, ego all over herself and a maniac who lives for her interest only.

And I don’t mind. Not anymore..

sinking boat

sinking boat

on the day that you walked away

i could hear your heart breaking

i could feel your tears streaming down

i can not blame you

for not choosing to stay

and who am i to stop you?

who am i to stand on your way?


i am too afraid

full of shame

i know there’s nothing i can do no more

you made your bed for both of us

and so be it


i will never find any man like you

willing to see beneath my flaws and mistakes

and loving me as it is


with you leaving

you wiped it clean on me

the love story we had

feels like made for drama

with you leaving

you left me empty

since you took everything

and left me with nothing


i am the sinking boat on the ocean

and you’re my lighthouse

whose just turn off the light

i can not find my way home anymore

it’s all darkness

and i am slowly drowning


see, you’re my only map

to the hunt of happiness

how could i go when i am blinded?

will you give me just one more chance

cause there’s more in me

only for you